tisdag 20 juni 2006

Without you...

I have a picture in my head
I’m standing on a high cliff
Looking down at the ocean
How angry waves hits the rocks
Salty winds blows through my hair
And here I’m just standing
Can’t take the step out
Can’t walk back
Waiting for someone to save me
Or fall with me toward eternity
I think I lost myself a long time ago
I’m still down there on the rocks
All dead
Won’t someone come and save me?
Bring me back from the dead
But for now I’m just standing here
Waiting
Want to spread my arms and just fall
No future
No past
I’m just standing here
Without you

Memories of a lost time

I still miss you
The long nights with absolutely nothing
Just a kind of a safe place to be
You were someone who cared
Where did we go wrong?
Was it me?
Was it you?
Why did you just turn your back and leave
Without a single word
Now when I see you, everything feels wrong.
We are like strangers
And it brings a deep sorrow inside
Do you ever think about me?
You are often in my thoughts
And it hurts so much when I realize
How much I have lost

Or maybe it was I who left
You made me lose my faith in you
Never called, never a single word on MSN
Never anything
Just silence
I stepped away from you
So I wouldn’t be reminded
Of that I don’t matter anymore
I gave up
Got tired of waiting
For nothing

onsdag 7 juni 2006

Summer plans

Open your eyes and look outside. It’s summer again. Sun is shining. Trees are green. Everyone is happy. It’s that time a year when you’re supposed to have so much fun. Travel, go to concerts, swim, have a romance and get a suntan.
It feels like I’m the only one feeling so sad. I have no plans for the summer. Not gonna travel, not gonna go to any concerts. Not even have someone to spend the summer with. It’s the first summer ever that I have no plans. Feels strange.
I still like the nights more than the days. Don’t get reminded of what I don’t have.
I’ve lost something. That feeling in my stomach. The only thing that made me feel that I’m still alive. I know I’m still in love, yet I can’t say the words anymore. Can’t say I love him anymore. All I feel inside is a big sadness. Don’t feel like smiling, I’m too alone. Don’t feel like talking, my words are empty anyway.
I long for the rainy summer nights. When I walk around all alone. It feels better to be alone when none is around.
And alone I am. Have none to turn to anymore. It feels like everyone just forgotten ‘bout me. I have none to travel to. I have none too go to in this town. All I have in my life right now is a little ghost on the net.
So alone in this world…